This is for the birds....

Disclaimer: I am not a doctor, counselor nor a specialist.  The things I say in here are not for medicinal purposes.  I have found that writing helps ease my anxiety and the symptoms that go along with it.  This is not meant to harm, offend or piss anyone off.  These are MY thoughts and feelings and I've added some comedy relief.  This is the way I am dealing with anxiety.  It has been said that laughter is the BEST medicine, although I've had to take Lortabs in the past so I tend to disagree. But anyways...grab a seat, a Xanax, do some deep breathing and enjoy yourself.

  
Do you know how many mornings I wake up and automatically want to take one of these pills?  I mean right out the gate.  And it's only 1000mg.  Do they have a 5000mg pill or can I take a 1000mg pill every 2-3 hours?  Yes, it's that deep.  But I'm not asking the RIGHT questions.  The right question are Where do they sell these? How much are they? Do I need a prescription? Can I take it with just water or do I need to take it with food? What are the side effects?  Wait...don't really care about the side effects.  No seriously, if I'm going to take a pill called Fukitol, am I really worried about the side effects?  Nope....



As an anxieter, you always wake up trying to anticipate what the day will bring.  And if the previous day was bad, you try not to let the events carry over. But it doesn't always work like that.  I can wake up on a Monday, have a good morning, a GREAT afternoon and then by evening, my mind has slipped into this mode where I'm expecting to have an anxiety attack.  Why?  Because I had a good day, that's why.  In my mind, if I have a good day my night is supposed to suck.  If not, my day is not balanced.  

My mind is saying "Okay, you had a good day.  So now it's time for you to get a migraine, cry and crave peanut butter cups...for no reason!"  Yes, anxiety is 24 hour a day, seven day a week PMS.  And the PMS stands for PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!  

When I start to worry and/or have anxiety symptoms, I just want to wave my white flag and sit in the corner.  That's the way it feels sometimes.  All your efforts to think positive and have a good day can be ELIMINATED by just having anxious thoughts for five minutes. 

I've read where if you feel yourself about to have a panic attack yell "STOP" over and over until you feel yourself calming down.  I don't want to laugh at that but it's HILARIOUS!  To me, yelling "STOP" can trigger your "fight or flight" mode which will drive you further into the abyss of anxiety.  

My bad days physically drain me.  I've released all my endorphins and I didn't even get off the couch and now I don't want to get off the couch because I'm endorphin deficient.

So the bad days are really for the birds.  It can eat worms and fly away like a bird.  It can fly south for the winter and stay.  Or better yet, it can stay throughout the winter, freeze to death and die.  #RIPAnxiety